Surprise!

I'm not particularly religious or prayerful. Though I'm not totally in lack of faith. I guess I'm just not that type of devout Catholic. I talk to God in my own ways, in the little gaps of time in my life where there is silence, when I'm alone and in the darkness.

Let me just tell you that the Lord works in the most amazing way. I'm at this point in my life where I am trying to get my ducks in line (although it feels like I've been trying to do this all my life). I'm at a crossroads and I have stopped because I don't know which way to go. It isn't often that my legs led me to attend mass. But last night, on a Wednesday night, I found myself entering the church in Greenbelt and actually sitting down on the pews and waited for the mass to start. I sang with the choir and paid attention for the whole duration. I was actually surprised with myself. I guess I just needed a clear mind and for my heart to be still. The priest talked about surprises in his homily. He said to, "Allow the Lord to surpise you." And the only way to do that is to be silent and be patient and to submit yourself to the Lord.

So here I am Lord, it is now up to You. Surprise me.